My Final Letter
As I sit here and write this final letter, I want you to know that you had a life of ups and downs. You handled somethings well, and others you completely bombed, but you always seemed to jump back as you were a go-getter and fighter. You’d never let people tell you that you couldn’t do something, and that was good in some ways and bad in others, but you, for the most part, proved me and others wrong no matter what the cost was.
As a kid, your life was full of dreams and excitement as the world was yours for the taking, and boy did you dream. You dreamed that someday you’d make something of yourself, and people would notice you for your accomplishments. You’d loved to be outside riding your bike, soaking up the sun, and enjoying what God made as you didn’t really understand the plan God had for your life, but God did and was always watching you as you grew up. Your imagination was bright and brilliant, and you wanted to be the one man who made a difference in people’s lives, and you had no idea God was going to use that passion for his glory.
Early teen life was hard on you as your parents got divorced and moved on, and life went out of control. Your dreams were shattered, and now you went into survival mode for living, but God never took his eye off you as he saw how well you’d do with the problems that arose. When you thought there was no way out from living day to day in a broken world, you started to give up, but God was cheering for you, but you didn’t see that each day. Unfortunately, you fell flat on your face as suicide was always on your mind, and God didn’t seem but a dream or someone who was far off like your earthly father. If fact, you failed so hard that you almost killed yourself and the plan God had for your life, but God is a big God, and he wasn’t done with you yet, so you got another shot at this, and I’m so glad God did give you another chance as I can sit here today and write this final letter to you.
Once you got out of your funk, I thought you’ll be OK, but something changed. Your heart grew cold, and you became something that God couldn’t use. You started in your early 20’s a life of all about you. I didn’t understand why you chased all that fame and praise of people. What did it get you? You pushed to be someone who people took notice of, and boy, they did! They said that guy is cocky, arrogant, rude, and the list goes on and on. I know this is hard to hear from old yourself, but dang boy, what the heck was you thinking? God was like, I have a plan for him, but the road he chose I can’t use. Lucky for you, God is a God of mercy and forgiveness, and he was waiting for the perfect timing to grab you back.
Well, let’s move on to your 20’s. I see you found a lovely girl who loved and adored you, but why did you have to be so hard on her? Why did you say things that you didn’t mean? I thought she was the one for you, and you seemed to step on her like the world was yours, and she was under your feet or worth. If I were her, I would have been like, see ya boy, but she saw something in you, and boy, you are lucky she did. She saw a little light you once had that was big but was put out by the world and your desires, but she said I married him, and I’m going to stick by my man no matter what, and for you, that became a big blessing in your life it just took you a while to see that. Life in your mind was good, and you strived all of your 20’s to run your life that way you sought fit, but to be honest, I really don’t remember what you did in your 20’s for God and his Kingdom, but I’m sure you do.
As time has passed a few years, I still see you live the same way once you hit your 30’s and your life is way out of control. You now have about ruined your life and marriage, and now I see a baby is on the way. Dude, wake up! Get it back on track! I pray that God grabs you and shakes you to the lowest point in your life that you call on him and give it all to him. Please remember he is a God of Mercy and Forgiveness and can take anything and make it good again. Please get off that highway of self and destruction. I’m praying daily for you and want God to shake you to the core, and I believe he will answer my prayer to get you back on track.
It has been a while since checking in on you, and all I can say is thank you, Lord. You got him! That was quite a shaking in his life, and he needed it. I now pray you to take him to his knees and raise a great person of God and let him see what he was doing was wrong and finally get it right. He needs to know your love and that he doesn’t need to please anyone but you, Father God. Give him a reset and peace that passes all his understanding, and my prayer from him is he will daily see you in his life and come back to you with a heart of change.
I want you to know I never stopped praying for you over the years. The best news I have heard is when you decided to follow God again. See, if you let God do what he wants, man, are you in for a ride like no other. In fact, the blessings of God will be so great in your life it will overwhelm you daily, and let me tell you, the blessings coming to you is going to blow your mind. When God said to you, are you going to give it all to me and follow me, for a brief second, I was scared you’d fail again, but you didn’t let me down. You stepped up and said; God use me anyway you can. You choose God again, and man, was I excited that you did.
Over the years, I’ve watched the hand of God pour out his blessings on you daily as he was raising you for Kingdom work. It is crazy to sit here and watch the blessing of how God has used you in so many people’s lives over the years. I told you living Holy was the way to go, but you didn’t believe me at first, but I’m so glad you do now see the hand of God in and over your life. His word is amazing, and he watches over his word if you live it. Keep on pushing and running your race, and I’m 100% sure you will finish strong.
Why are you crying? My job is done here, and I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith, and now I will collect my prize. Please excuse me for not writing out all your accomplishments; God knows, and he will reward you for it all, my friend. Thank you for being faithful to the call of God and loving people no matter what. You are in a new season of life as mine is ending now. The battles you will face will be like no others you have fought but put on the full armor of God, and you can’t lose. Peace be with you, and God isn’t done with you just yet, but please remember to look back and read this letter if you ever feel like God isn’t there or answering you. He has a purpose for you and loves you, and when you get to the end of the road, it will all be worth it.
Author: JJ Michael Smith
God bless,
igotasavior
